Look at my face!

If you look at the selfie above I took today you will see pain!!! That’s the result of walking around Belfast City Centre getting some retail therapy😂👕👞👔. I’m writing this post now absolutely knackered! At least this counts part of my regular exercise I should be getting. 

I’ve been feeling slightly low mood past few days and so thought I would treat myself to something. I know that’s not what you are meant to do but sure I have a good excuse lol!! The cancer journey can be strange situation, one minute you have yourself dead and buried and the next you get a new lease of life and all you want to do is well that’s exactly it, you want to do everything, unfortunately there is one thing wanting to do and actually doing.

You just don’t have the energy🚶🚶😴😴😴 Having Cancer and suppose any life threatening disease dealing with mixed emotions and energy levels is such a challenge. There are things I have learned about myself during this journey : 

1. I will not give up until my last breath
2. I’m not as fit as I used to be (definitely not!)
3. I’m over 2st heavier (Fat)
4. Stubborn (That’s what my wife tells me)
5. Moody  (That’s what my wife tells me also)
6. Get angry easier
7. And Bald!! Ha ha 

There are probably other things to say  but I can’t remember, oh that’s it memory problems 😜

That’s probably enough for today and I have to warn you my next post will be a little embarrassing for me as I will talk about a side effect from the treatment. The title of the next post will be ‘Sex Drive’…………..

Back Pain

Probably a boring subject to talk about but I suppose it’s very much part of my Journey. Past couple of days I have been in agony with back pain. The physio has given me exercises to do and also a Tens Machine to help temporarily with the pain. 

It gets you down when your in pain and I can understand why when in palliative care that the hospitals concentrate on keeping you pain free because they want you to be as comfortable as possible. I try to stay away from taking more pain killers but I had to resort to morphin tablets yesterday as I couldn’t stick the pain any longer. 

Fatigue and pain are the major issues with cancer and its difficult to get on top of them, but I have no choice but to confront them and every method I can to reduce.

Anyway, talk later, I’ll do another update later