Bad Day

I have just woke up from a day time sleep lasting 5hrs!! This is a result of walking 1.5 miles which took me nearly a half hour on Friday! It takes very little to bring on the severe fatigue. It effects my mood making very low and my back hurts. 

Soon I will be ready again to go to bed I will probably sleep again for about 6-7hrs. Sometimes you just want to give up. There is one thing I haven’t talked about when I get like this and that is my faith in god, it’s times like this is I will pray for strength. I will post on this subject over the coming days 

I want to thank you for reading my journey so far it’s very much appreciated 

What Cancer has taught me (Part one)

I will post on this subject in parts as it’s to long to do in one 

Patients

There is one thing Cancer has taught me and that is patients. When you are diagnosed with cancer your mind is racing a mile a minute thinking about when more information will be given to you, am I going to die, is it curable, what about my family, will they miss me when I’m gone?

All you want is for everything to be on your lap straight away but unfortunately it doesn’t work like that, endless hospital appointments waiting around for doctors, blood tests, scans, drugs the list is endless.

Although I do have side effects from treatment regarding my mood I am definitely a more patient person since getting cancer, not that I recommend having cancer to be more patient but at least there are some positive things that come out of a cancer diagnosis.

Living in the moment

The very much talked about ‘living in the moment’ is something I am very much interested in. I can totally relate to this position, when you have a disease like cancer you have choices, you can choose to live in the past and beat yourself up all the time wondering what you done wrong to get cancer?

Also you can live in the future which hasn’t happened yet wondering when your going to die or if the next scan will be bad news or what will happen to my family etc etc etc……. I think I’m now in the position to say the past has gone so no point to think about it anymore I can’t change it, the future hasn’t happened yet, but I can shape it, so all there is, is the present moment where I can deal with what is happening here and now which will automatically shape my future of things that are within my control.

That’s the key you can only control what you can control!! Why waste your time trying to change something that is beyond your control!!

Living in the moment is a great place to be, it takes stress and worry away!