It’s 5am

            

Sorry I haven’t posted in a few days but firstly I have a chest infection which is getting me down, doctor has given me an antibiotic so hopefully it will clear up soon. Secondly I met with my consultant to have my regular blood tests and then my treatment. The treatment always makes me feel tired and just generally feeling rubbish. So this mixed in with my treatment it hasn’t been the best couple of days .

The reason I’ve titled this post 5am is because it’s 5am I’m writing this post and it’s a time I’ve been waking up on a regular basis lately. So why? I’m getting around 6-7 hrs sleep at night when I don’t have my marathon sleeps. So i am sitting here wondering why? I think my body is going back to its regular routine of sleep. When I was working and transporting my son to swimming training each morning I used to get up around this time.

So really to get on to my point of this post. When you are not ill you are in a routine of life, your body reacts automatically to getting up out of bed at a particular time, eating a particular time etc etc…. when you have a disease like cancer that routine goes out the window, your life is turned upside down there is no routine apart from going to hospital appointments which isn’t life at all. 

Routine is a major part of life, and it is something I’ve been trying to build back into my life again, like doing regular exercise and even writing this blog helps routine. Routine is defined as: Performed as part of a regular procedure rather than for a special reason.

It’s this routine that forms our lives as it is now and it looks like its routine that’s coming back into my life even though I don’t want to wake up at 5am anymore i am happy some sort of routine is coming back in my life. I think now I will go back to bed 😝😝😝😝
Richard