A Murder Picture

There’s nothing like watching a horror movie to take your mind of reality!! Last night I watched Halloween and I really enjoyed it again!! 

Movies do drag you into a world that is away from real life for a couple of hours and to be honest a welcome 2hrs.

I haven’t posted for a few days because I have been ingrosed in my own nightmare of trying to mentally and physically deal with my illness. 

Sometimes you need to separate yourself from everything to try and bring some sort of acceptance and reality to your situation as hard as it may be. 

The reality is I’m dying but I’m not dead yet. This is my reality this is my nightmare and although I’ve been told I’m going to die I don’t know exactly when. 

So in the meantime I have to keep my reality as it is now and the reality is  at this present moment I am alive to enjoy life as much as I can. 

Hopefully now my chest infection is disappearing and I can get myself back on track to enjoy life which is the most difficult thing in the world at this present moment.

When watching a horror movie you know it’s not real but when you have a horror movie of your own life when waking up every morning there is no switching off , you are still in the nightmare.